Whats the Matta wit You?

Hi Peeps.. Im just about heading to bed and came across my blog and figured I would write some new shit.  So whats on my mind tonight? Hmm not a whole lot. I have finally moved from the prison my mind and feelings had put me through for the last year.  It was pretty crazy. One day I just woke up went to work and was like wow I feel great Im not in jail anymore I finally broke out. 

You ever think to yourself if their is really luck out there? Like are some poeple luckier then others? I think so I think it also helps when your in the right place at the right time. Im neither. I really sometimes I think Im very unlucky and not really ever in the right place at the right time. One day I think I will be and that should be cool.

I started writing down goals for myself that I wanted to accomplish but really havent gone anywhere yet trying to accpmplish them. I think one of my goals should be to accomplish my goals.. 

Well I m going to bed I have a big day of answering the phone and sitting in front of a computer. Another day living the fucking dream of life and the real world.

Brainwashing

How many people do you think are out there that are brainwashed and dont really know it. Some people say its love, or friendship or whatever but I think its brainwashing. So Im watching this True Story on MTV of I cant break up with my boyfriend (which i never watch ) and it got me thinking of these people can sit back and watch themselves on tv what would they think??  

These guys are treating them like shit and they dont even know it. They are like Oh maybe he will change or oh thats just the way he is.  Its pretty ridiculous how brainwashed these girls are and how they cant snap out of it. You just want to yell in their faces wake the fuck up girl your an idiot.  

It will eat you up inside

You ever have something important to tell someone but couldn't do it because you know the outcome of what you say is going to be bad. So you just don't tell them and its eat you up inside for months even years.  So whats the right thing to do for yourself? Do you tell that person what eating you up inside? Or just let it be, let it go, and regret it 20 years from now.  I think you let it go, try to get over with it and move on.  Especially if you know its going to turn out a disaster. No need to put yourself threw the blender. 

I might not be making sense to anyone but whatever no one reads my shit and im not looking for advice i just need to get it off my chest.

You ever want to take someone by the head and knock some sense into them because you know deep down inside that they need to wake up and smell the coffee but couldnt do it because they have to do it for themselves. 

Ive come to the conclusion that you cant change the way somebody feels about something. The only thing you have control over is the way you feel, act and do. I think our whole lives we try to act a certain way to get other people to feel certain things about you but in the long run you have no control over how they feel.  You have to start worrying about how you feel and act and nobody else. Be true to yourself, take care of yourself financially, health, and family and thats all you can really do. 

So if your that person and your reading my blog right now..just know this I have something important to tell you but I never will and I want to knock some sense into you but wont do that either.  Your move..

Ona  funny note i got something else i have to get off my chest while im writing this blog. Whats up with gym locker rooms? I understand its a place for guys to change, shower and such but is it necessary for 90 year old men to blow dry their hair butt fucking naked. Would it be that hard to get a towel or underwear. 

Have a goodnight everyone

Corporate World is Evil

Well Heeeelllllloooooo.. You know what I was just thinking about. How fucked up the corporate world is. When your going through college the whole time your thinking wow I cant wait to get out and get a job in the "real world" and be an adult and all this shit.  I say fuck all that shit. I wish I could have went to college till i was 65 and then retired. The corporate world is a fucking nightmare. It doesnt matter how good you do in a job. The evil empires always want more. More sales more number more money. They are this big greedy bunch of fuck faces who sit around in their fucking suits drumming up more ways to suck money out of people, and businesses. They dont care about employees, people or anything. All they care about is the number at the end of the month and how to make more of it.

I think they should come out with another Superman or Batman movie where they are fighting corporate america. I dont think that they would need Krupyonite. I think corporate America would probably kill Clark Kent without him having to become Superman. The Daily Planet looks evil. Bruce Wayne on the other hand is corporate America fuck him too.  

well im off to bed.. not a real winner of a blog tonight but its something 

It's been awhile

Im not really sure why Im still up but tonight I felt the need to put my headphones on listen to some of my music and write away. It still doesnt feel like anyone does read my shit but I really don't care. I dont update my facebook status or go around telling everyone to read my blog. I write this shit down for myself. Its a way for me to vent out some shit kind of like how Doogie Howser used to do at the end of every episode.  

Lately I have been asking myself a lot why stuff comes easier to other people and not me. Why some people can find love easy or find jobs that they love easy and other have a hard time.  It's amazing how some people can go through life and just coast through it and there are others who have to work their asses off to find themselves in the same situation.  For example pro sports is a good example.  There NBA players like Dwayne Wade who came from nothing. Abusive parents in the hood in IL. And now is a superstar.  Dwayne Wade does not drink or party he has seen what stuff like that could do to people.  I have seen what that stuff can do people.  And then there kids like Luke Walton who were born into it had all the resources to do it and they are in the same situation.

I was going to go at this blog a different route but I want to to talk about something different. I want to talk about alcohol.  To me there is something evil in alcohol.  Alcohol makes people do things that sometimes I just sit back and say what the fuck are they doing.  They take things for granted. They think that since they already have it or them that they can just do whatever they want with no repercussions.  Alcohol makes people feel good it takes them out of the real world for a few hours or days (depending on how much you drink) and puts them in a alternate universe where their problems go away.  Im not saying I have never gotten drunk but when you get drunk and start hurting people cause your drunk you care about is where I draw the line. If someone needs to go out 3,4,5 times a week. They are trying to escape from their lives instead of trying to make things better.  How bout instead of going out why don't you try to fix your problems or realize what you have in front of you cause there are probably many people who would love to have what you have.  

I heard a quote yesterday it was something like "Instead of trying so hard to get what you don't have you should stop and look what you do have."  Please stop and look what you do have cause one day when you so stop its not going to be there anymore and your gonna regret it for the rest of your life.  

Not to change the topic but this is my blog so fuck off.  I never realized how greedy and backstabbing people can be. I guess corporate America will wake you up to that.  But sometimes it can be really frustrating if everyday you really don;t know who to trust. You feel like your watching your back all the time. I do believe money is the root of all evil till this day.

I don't believe that anymore I feel you need money to live. House, car phone stuff you need to live comfortably. I dont believe you need millions of dollars to be happy in life. I feel everyone is different in what they need to be happy. For me to be happy I need to be able to fufill those needs. I need a job that I like going to do and to be surrounded by loving people. Well That enough for me Im tired..

Not sure what people think sometimes

Now Im still not really sure if people read my blog but I get a kick out of reading my own blogs so I will write whenever I want too it could be once every five months or three times a week.. Whatever

Here is my new thought of the night. Its relationships.. Now im not ana expert by any means on this topic but here is my thought that I want to get off my chest. Can somebody really say anything they really want to a significant other, treat them terribly, be a raving, belligerent aasshole to everybody and then be forgiven like the next day? Are people really blind to see the true self in somebody or is it really all about looks, and money? I dont think I could ever be like that to somebody I love. At least I hope not. If I ever see myself acting like that to a girl that I love I will dump myself.  Its funny you see I have never been the relationship type guy. But I have been sitting on the bench for so long watching and studying other peoples relationships that I am like, Steve Young, Tom Brady, Aaron Rodgers waiting on the bench studying and watching so when it is my time to go in I will be the best person I could be.  When you get thrown in like Leinert, Vince Young etc you can get burned easy.

I think people, girls especially, need to wake up and realize that they dont deserve to be treated like pieces of shit because their significant other feels like doing it. They need to fucking man up and be confident, and learn how to stick up for themselves. There is nothing more unnattractive then a girl who cant stick up for themselves. I have met so many good looking souless girls in my day that sometimes I realize that good looks can be a curse if you dont know how to handle being good looking.  If your looks control you they will turn your soul black.  What I mean by black is not having any control over your own emotions. People influence your decisions.. You are always worried about what you look like, what your going to say, and can never be yourslef because your looks become your personality and your original self gets lost in your looks.  

Why is it that you alsways see great looks woman driving expensive cars?? Is is because they went to college and worked their ass off to get it..? Maybe some accomplished woman have done it this way. But alot of other woman just marry guys with lots of money. They look and go for the money so they can feel like they they have accomplished something and have bragging rights for their friends.  well that is it for now Im going to bed 

Enterprise.. We will pick you up.. use you and then throw you away

Wow so where do I begin I dont even remember the last time i wrote a blog..

I want to talk about the job market.. The job market is terrible and Im not gonna sit here and blame W Bush or the american economy or what not. Im gonna blame Corporate America. It seems kids are more likely to get jobs out of college when they know somebody. Jobs that are hiring right out of college are really to be weary of. Companies like Enterprise Rent-a-Car and these scam marketing companies looking for young enthuastic hard working kids. These jobs and companies are scams.. Enterprise makes you work 11-12 hour days with hardly bullshit for pay making you sell scam insurance to a ungrateful, fuck heads of customers. With this fucking pipe dream of one day getting promoted.. to a manger who makes not too much more money and has a ton more responsibilty.

Then they have these scam marketing companies like Scanno Advertising, and the Alliance Executive Group who call young college kids promising them these great opportunties and then they make you go door to door sales seliing sports marketing brochures..

What a fucking joke its hard enough for us to find good jobs and now we have to look out for these sports scam advertising companies.. Its so bullshit.. Oh yeah I also love the interview proccess with some companies.. They make you go to like 4 interviews asking you the same fucking excact questions as the interviews before with the same people.. Sometime I think these companies know if they are hiring you from the first five minutes of meeting you. Kind of like how girls make their minds within the first five minutes of metting you if they aere going to have sex with you

Some Random Dude

Dude (pronounced Du-de, greek origin, She is is going out with a random dude.)

I was driving home from work today and thought to myself how many girls do you know that are friends with, date or just plain out know random dudes. A random dude is a guy who is just random. A guy who a girl meets at the bar or a guy who is a friend of a friend. Hes a dude and thats that. He is that guy that when you are with your friends that nobody knows and he is there hanging out. He is that guy wearing a book bag in the middle of a party or that guy wearing shorts when is 10 below or that guy wearing a sweatshirt when its 90. He is that gy wearing camoflague shirt and shirts wearing a bandana at a bar. A dude is that guy He is that guy bumming a cig off your friends or stealing a beer from your fridge cause he couldnt afford to bring his own. A dude is a guy who spends all of his money on tattoos and then doest have money for classes, books, or food. A dude is a guy who loves to use girls for money and shit.

Now you know what peeves me ..A good looking girl who dates a dude. I mean you and all your friends know that this a dude .. he looks like and acts like a dude.. all of his friends are dudes.. yet he has a good looking girl. Its amazing when you and some of your friends are good guys with no girls yet these dudes are with girls. I might be a dude to a bunch of other guys that dont know me but I dont think they know what a dude is so.. to me they are dudes..

I have also came to the realization that there is no karma I alaways have fealt since my psych days in college that there was Karma but I dont know if I believe that anymore. Here are two reasons why..

I read today in the newspaper that a child molestor who was released from prison in 2004 recently wont the lottery for 10 million dollars.. Although he won it out of the state and might get into trouble for being out ofstate he will still collect the 10 million

The other reason was recently a man that i know Im not gonna say any names won a bowling tourney and hasnt excactly been a saint in his life. But he defintly had some luck in the final match.. People say Karma is a bitch but i dont believe it

Happy Valentines Day to everyone and remember ladies if you read this and you realize your with a dude.. your a loser..

New Year..

First off I would like to say if your still checking my blog for new posts then you really have no life.. I really havent had alot to say in the last few months.. I still dont have alot to say ..so Im typing cause i have nothing else to do.. Well anwwayim currently watching true life Im an alcoholic.. This girl is seriously going through the newspaper looking for an AA meeting while she is drinking a natty light.. so hilarious.. Anyway I could understand why people dont want to drink.. When you drink you dumb stuff.. You say shit you shouldnt have said or do stuff you shouldnt have done and then you wake up the next day and are like damn what did i do..

You ever wonder how people go on their whole lives working 12 hour days doing something they dont like to do for years at a time.. it has to wear on a persons psyche. Anyway i have nothing more to say so peace

What is wrong with people?

You think people go around just being miserable to everybody.. That these people have such bad lives that they have to bring everyone down with them. Is it really that hard to be nice to people. I think it should be legal to slap people.. I mean if someone is being an ass they should get slapped. Its that easy.. no retaliation you just take the slap and move on.

I met this guy the other day he had no personality i mean he just sat there and was like duh my name is john duh the weather is great duh...

I have also noticed that people like to talk about the same things.. the weather.. the michigan economy and gas prices..

If I find myslef talking to somebody and we are talking about the weather then we really hit the rockbottom of conversations like the last resort too talking ..

im tired so im going to bed.. holla

Ties Dont Belong in Life

Ties.. the word in general should be banned from the dictionary as well as life..

Think about it.. What good has ever come out of ties.. The major league all star game..ended in a tie.. No one was happy. Soccer, and Hockey end in ties no one gives a fuck.. especially about hockey anyway,

And the worst tie of them all.. the one you wear around your neck. I would love to go back in time and be their at the present moment when a bunch of guys or woman were sitting in a room and said.. From now on if a guy gets all dressed up and formal he has to wear some kind of silk fucking fabric around his neck. It also has to be the most uncomfortable thing ever so everyday when a guy waked up he dreads wearing this thing around his neck with long sleeves and long pants in 90 degree weather so you sweat like a 300 lb virgin in a whore house. I also forgot to mention that the whole time your sweating you also feel like your getting strangled the whole time..

I say the american government should try to get answers out of hostile terrorists by putting them into suits with ties.. and make them get up at 6 am.. iron your shirt.. strangle a tie around your neck.. drink coffee and talk to people who are angry at the world.. You will see how fast we find osama bin laden if we develop strategies like this one.

In better news.. the wonder years has been on the channel ion.. The wonder years is some good tv.. The show hits home is so many ways.. Always a good lesson to be learned at the end of every show.. A life lesson.. and im not talking about Full House lessons where everything is fine and dandy .. Im talking lessons in love, family, failure, success,and anything that you encounter in life is covered on this show...

On the topic of tvs and movies Superbad comes out this week and im excited about it.. something about this movie says really funny i dont know why.. maybe its McLovin or the previe when he asks the girl for the time and hes like Yeah I told her the time chicka chikca ya ..HAHA.. anyway just call me Habib getting tortured cause im going to bed to wake up at 6am.. Peace Holla

No No Salt on my Margarita

Ok so I have been addicted to Everybody Loves Raymond lately.. There something about that show that really does it for me.. I will find myself laughing out aloud by myself watching that show.

Another show that I find myself watching alot is Cops.. You never realized how dumb most of this country is until you watch Cops.. I think the best has to be when a guy gets pulled over.. He takes off running.. and when the cops finally catch him, take him to the floor and bash his head in. They put cuffs on him yet how gentle are they to make sure he doesnt hit his head on the car roof. So the best part of it all is when they open the car door and they talk to him. They ask where he got the drugs from.. He doesnt know somebody put it in his pocket. Well why was he running? Not sure he was nervous.. Its soo funny to see.. They will NEVER admit that they were doing something wrong..

I have come to the conclusion that October is the best month for sports.. Baseball playoffs, Football season, and college football. Im so ready for Barry Bonds to break this fucking record already im tired of hearing about him.. Also Michael Vick and this dog fighting case pisses me off.. Pisses me off in the fact that Im confused because when Kobe was accused of raping a girl he had alot of support and then it ends up this girl was a complete bullshitter.. When the Duke Lacrosse players were accused of raping those nut job strippers everyone jumped on them like they did it.. not hearing any of the defensive side to it.. and they ended up being innocent like Kobe.. Now I dont know if Vick did it or not but im not willing to jump to any conclusions yet until I hear both sides of the argument. Thats what is wrong with alot of this country people jump on other people before they hear both sides of the story.. Now if he did do it then I hop ehe gets it in the ass for killing defenseless dogs but if he is inncoent and had nothing to do with it then the whole country owes him an engraved apology.

Well I could talk about a whole lot more but i will save my relentless banter for another blog ...Only if i was getting points for my banter like around the horn..

MTV Shaping the Minds of Our Youth

So the other day I'm flipping through the channels and came across The Music Television channel or better known as MTV. Even though I dont recall the last time i actually saw music getting played on that channel. Anyway MTV's shows are shaping the minds of of our youth. They put out shows like Laguna Beach, and my super sweet sixteen out to let young females think the only way to live is with lots of money. I mean cmon these fathers are buying there 16 year old daughters 100,000 dollar cars and throwing parties for them that celebrities throw. Isnt it weird that MTV selects one of the richest areas in the country to do a "reality show" on. Living in that area isnt close to reality. You want some reality film a show in Brooklyn on the slums of Saginaw Michigan. Then you will get some reality.

I dont really know what the aftermath of these shows will be on the MTV youth. I mean there are already alot of materialistic money hungry woman out there. I wonder if these will get worst in the next generation. All I know is if I ever have a daughter and I have alot of money .. I defintly wont buy her a 100,000 dollar car when she turns 16..

1995 Buick with a Handicap Symbol on the Plate

So Yeah I think that old people drive around and look for one lane roads to drive on. The reason why I say this is because for some reason everytime I am late somewhere I end up behind a 1995 Buick with a handicap symbol on the back of it. This car always going 20 mph less then the speed limit and there is someone so old driving this car that they are not even driving.. god is..God is their pilot.. When is the DMV or what Michiganders know it as the Secretary of State going to step in and at least give people over the age 0f 80 another driving test.

Anyway so Packman Jones is in the news again today.. If I was Packman Jones I wouldn't probably go to anymore strip bars. But what annoys me about this whole situation is that Packman Jones wasnt even in the car when supposedly his entourage shot up another car. Yet the espn media goes crazy and make this giant deal because the cops want to question him. Espn is slowly becoming annoying repepitive bullshit. They are becoming the sports paparazzi. Making huge deals out of nothing. There are young teens all over the world telling each other hey lets shoot up cars and tell people that Pacman Jones was with us..

Woman Speak

Welcome back to my Blog. The other day I was eating lunch during my one hour escape of the work day and I was sitting behind these two woman eating and conversating. So I started listening to there conversation and realized something about woman. There whole conversation wasn't even a conversation it was two woman talking about themselves. The conversation went something like this:

Girl1: "I love this place for lunch, I get the chicken salad everytime."
Girl2: "I get the garden salad with chicken on it"
Girl1: "I think I am going to buy this shirt I found in the mall yesterday"
Girl2: "I just bought a cute mini-skirt there last week."
Girl1: I want to buy a skirt too"
Girl2: "I need to call my boyfriend soon"

Now ever since this conversation I started listening to woman talk and I noticed there is a major trend with most woman. All they do is talk about themselves. Gof Forbid they show some kind of interest in somebody else's buisness. I am sure I am guilty as anybody doing this especially this sentence I am writing right now I am talking about myslef. But this is my blog..

Blogger not confused with Frogger!

Hello people! I am starting this blog with the hopes that people read it and respond to it. I am also starting this blog because I love to read one of my best friend's Matt's Blog. I don't think the grammer will be as good as his but who gives a fuck its my blog right.

so Yeeeeaaahhhh I just started my new office job and its alright. I am living in Sterling Heights, Michigan and Work in Troy, MI. Its such a good change from Saginaw where there is nothing to do and no future in that city. The only thing I miss is my college friends and Retro Rocks (a 80's retro bar). Working in a coporate setting has given me a new meaning to the movie Office Space. How funny that movie is now more than ever is great. They were so right on with everything in that movie it makes me laugh. It's normal for me to recieve daily text messages from Matt and Bill with Office space comments and Caddyshack quotes. Matt usually just texts whenever he feels like it.. Most of the time just the first thoughts that comes in head.
Alot of those text messages get me through the day.

Ya know I was gonna use this blog to tell people what was going on with me lately but ya know fuck that.. Why should I let people know whats up with me when they dont even care to call me or email me or whatever. Its so easy nowadays to keep in contact with people.. how hard is it to facebook or myspace someone and see whats going on with them.. I guess its a double edged sword too because I could be doing that too people that I am friends with too but I just don't really care I guess. I know who my true friends are.

Working in a office opens my eyes to alot of things. Most of those things is what a co-worker told me today.. Its called the mid 20's life crisis or maybe since today is Monday it's "The Case of the Mondays" well whatever it is She was saying that when you get to my age 25 or 26 you start facing the conclusion that all of your dreams of being a pro athlete or rich and famous starts to slide and you accept the fact that your life is what it is.. Like everyone else's normal. Normal I mean by wake up go to work, come home, eat dinner, watch tv or go to the gym and then go to bed to do it all over again the next day. I think she is right and I dont think there is anything wrong with that. But I do not have to accept that as my life. and I won't. I have only been working for about 1 month now and everyday I wake up I could see how people get into this routine of Normality. My father is doing it for over 35 years and it never changes. And life goes so quick I could remember the day I left to go away to school. now I fucking 26 years old in a blink of an eye and soon i will be 40.

Life to short to be normal and I am going to take every chance that I get not fit in the normal life. There are exception in life to this normality. Bill Gates, Mark Cuban, Bronson(Owner of Virgin records) Vinny Chase and his entourage and so forth.. I know these lives are 1 in 10 million but somebody has to be that one.. I guess what i'm saying is if i can be close to that I would love it..

Well I guess that's enough rambling for one day.. Its almost 5 o'clock and its time for me to go fight traffic home from a hard days work. prob watch some tv and then go to bed

Life is too normal