It's been awhile

Im not really sure why Im still up but tonight I felt the need to put my headphones on listen to some of my music and write away. It still doesnt feel like anyone does read my shit but I really don't care. I dont update my facebook status or go around telling everyone to read my blog. I write this shit down for myself. Its a way for me to vent out some shit kind of like how Doogie Howser used to do at the end of every episode.  

Lately I have been asking myself a lot why stuff comes easier to other people and not me. Why some people can find love easy or find jobs that they love easy and other have a hard time.  It's amazing how some people can go through life and just coast through it and there are others who have to work their asses off to find themselves in the same situation.  For example pro sports is a good example.  There NBA players like Dwayne Wade who came from nothing. Abusive parents in the hood in IL. And now is a superstar.  Dwayne Wade does not drink or party he has seen what stuff like that could do to people.  I have seen what that stuff can do people.  And then there kids like Luke Walton who were born into it had all the resources to do it and they are in the same situation.

I was going to go at this blog a different route but I want to to talk about something different. I want to talk about alcohol.  To me there is something evil in alcohol.  Alcohol makes people do things that sometimes I just sit back and say what the fuck are they doing.  They take things for granted. They think that since they already have it or them that they can just do whatever they want with no repercussions.  Alcohol makes people feel good it takes them out of the real world for a few hours or days (depending on how much you drink) and puts them in a alternate universe where their problems go away.  Im not saying I have never gotten drunk but when you get drunk and start hurting people cause your drunk you care about is where I draw the line. If someone needs to go out 3,4,5 times a week. They are trying to escape from their lives instead of trying to make things better.  How bout instead of going out why don't you try to fix your problems or realize what you have in front of you cause there are probably many people who would love to have what you have.  

I heard a quote yesterday it was something like "Instead of trying so hard to get what you don't have you should stop and look what you do have."  Please stop and look what you do have cause one day when you so stop its not going to be there anymore and your gonna regret it for the rest of your life.  

Not to change the topic but this is my blog so fuck off.  I never realized how greedy and backstabbing people can be. I guess corporate America will wake you up to that.  But sometimes it can be really frustrating if everyday you really don;t know who to trust. You feel like your watching your back all the time. I do believe money is the root of all evil till this day.

I don't believe that anymore I feel you need money to live. House, car phone stuff you need to live comfortably. I dont believe you need millions of dollars to be happy in life. I feel everyone is different in what they need to be happy. For me to be happy I need to be able to fufill those needs. I need a job that I like going to do and to be surrounded by loving people. Well That enough for me Im tired..